Tuesday, March 29, 2011

...you can have all this world...

Yesterday was hard, a day of shock and grief. Despite my emotional turmoil, I had to stay focused and get through my two hour Spanish class as well as conversations with friends. We also had group class to go through that evening. I wasn't sure I could last that long, but I'm so glad I tried. Yes, I'd been crying for a few hours, yes, my piano piece was no longer memorized, yes, I didn't really want to talk to anyone, but I knew that group class would be a good break.

Leia and I managed to look cheerful. I was even able to carry on conversations with my cousin and friends and even laugh, but it still was hard.

When group class started, as I sat there on the sofa listening to friends play their different songs, my mind was elsewhere. I was reliving every memory I had of our friend who died, trying to remember every little thing that I did with him, every conversation. It was hard to keep from crying there too - but I didn't really want anyone to notice. It was about then that one of our friends got up and said that he was going to play and sing "Give Me Jesus". I knew the song, so I tried to pay attention. I'm glad I did.

It was beautiful.

It was a gift.

It was just what Leia and I needed to hear....we both got teary eyed as we listened to the simple, comforting words.

Thank you Lord for giving us that song to carry us through the rest of that long day.

Thank you Lord, for giving us Jesus.

In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise

Give me Jesus.

Give me Jesus, 
Give me Jesus.
You can have all this world,
Just give me Jesus.

When I am alone,
When I am alone, 
When I am alone,
Give me Jesus.

Give me Jesus, 
Give me Jesus.
You can have all this world,
Just give me Jesus.

When I come to die,
When I come to die,
When I come to die,
Give me Jesus.

Give me Jesus, 
Give me Jesus.
You can have all this world,
Just give me Jesus.

Give me Jesus, 
Give me Jesus.
You can have all this world,
You can have all this world, 
You can have all this world, 
Just give me Jesus.

p.s. I know I did say I was going to be "out of blog", but I really wanted to share this with y'all.

giveaway and a prayer request

There's a lovely Flexi-8 giveaway at Bramblewood Fashion this week! Check it out!

As an FYI: our family (especially my parents, Leia and I) is going through a really hard, emotional time right now due to a tragic accident that happened to a friend on Sunday night. I can't really tell you the details, but be praying for peace and comfort for us and for all the family and friends who are grieving and hurting right now.
Because of this, I will probably be "out of blog" until Friday, or possibly later.

Thank you for your prayers....

Sunday, March 27, 2011

to correct....or not to correct? *that* is the question...

At church, Leia, Mama and I are in a ladies' Sunday School class that is going through Martha Peace's The Excellent Wife. It's been running for three or four weeks now, and I'm finding that the wisdom in this book does not just apply to marriage, but to really any human relationship. This week's chapters were especially relevant.

Today, we discussed the Biblical way to receive reproof. *ding ding!* Not that I need to work on this at all.... *cough* Yes, I found it very convicting. I'm sixteen years old. That should be all the explanation necessary for you to understand why I struggle receiving reproof. As much as I've tried *not* be "your average teen" - I'm still vulnerable to the mentality that I rule the world and know more than my parents do. Anyone else ever felt that way? I confess (although it is painful to do so - I'd love for you to think that I'm perfect :P) that I do not receive correction and reproof as well as I should. I get defensive, feel hurt, and treat Dad (he's the main one who corrects me) disrespectfully. By God's grace, I've been doing much better as I realize that my parents are correcting me for my own good, not just because they can. However, I still have much room for improvement!

One of the "right ways to respond to reproof" listed was "Do not justify or defend yourself." ........*long silence*.......... I repeat: "Do not justify or defend yourself." Wow. Convicting, right? This is where I need to work. No more "Well, if *you* hadn't said this..." or "If *she* hadn't done that..." or "If we hadn't done such and such yesterday then..." Nope. Sin is sin, and there is no excuse. Another point was "Show the fruit of repentance. Stop doing the sin and start doing the right thing." I need to make a conscious effort to mend my ways. Now that this person (mama, dad, sibling, friend) has shown that he or she loves me enough to bring this area of sin to me, I need to respond by working to fix this area of my life. It's not always easy, but God wouldn't ask us to do something if He knew we weren't capable of doing it. He'll help us - He promised.

There was also a section on giving reproof. *cough* Not that I need work here either....*sigh* With seven siblings, this is an issue for me. Here as well, God has been good and my attitude and tone of voice when giving correction have improved greatly, but I can always do better. The most convicting point of this section for me was this: "Comfort [them] as you correct [them]." My siblings, like most everyone's, are very sensitive. If I come up and start laying into them, they'll shut down. Young children need to be loved and cared for, not crushed. If they've done something that needs correction, I should come to them in love - not anger - and praise them before I correct them. Example: "{name}, you've done *such* a great job keeping your area clean this week. You're really showing initiative. However, when you leave your clothes in someone else's area, that's disrespectful to them..." etc. Sadly, that is not my natural way to correct. Also, I don't have to correct *everything* I see. I know I've gotten better on this. Let things go, they're just children and most of these little annoying "sins" are things they'll grow out of. If you correct them all the time, they aren't going to love you. *sigh* There are a lot of responsibilities on the shoulders of the oldest of eight.

Just a month or two ago, these sins would've been depressing. I would've been filled with guilt, feeling like I couldn't handle it. However, in the past few weeks or so, things have changed. I've been overwhelmed by my life - but not for the "usual" reasons. Even though my life and school may be busy, hard and confusing at times as well as exciting and joyful, I know that God is in control of it all and I don't have to be afraid. If I am leaning on Him, praying through the confusing issues and reading His Word, I can feel Him carrying my load. That's the overwhelming thing.

*sigh* So those were big confessions for me. I hope I didn't lose you somewhere in there. *wink* Remember when I was walking on clouds two weeks ago? (click HERE to read that "lovely" post :P) Well, I've found that the higher one walks, the closer one is to heaven and the more exciting one's theological discoveries become. All these convictions, instead of pulling me down, are raising me higher as I realize more and more how great our God is, and how much I'm learning in such a short period of time. So Leia, Titty, Marie, Peter, Luke, GoGo, and Zuzu - expect a change in your Jo. I'm going to be trying more than ever to be the big sister that I've been called to be....so cut me some slack, alright? *wink* :D

Love y'all!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

saturday morning daybook

If you want to join me, CLICK HERE and follow the instructions :)

Date... March 25, 2011
Starting time... 11:43am (still morning!)
Mood...exhausted :D
Outside my window...an empty field that just two short hours ago had seven tents set up on it, a campfire blazing and children everywhere :D
I'm thinking...about 
I'm currently reading...The Kitchen Boy by Robert Anderson
I'm listening to...the boys playing Enchanted Forest
I'm wearing...denim tiered skirt, blue flowered shirt, white sweater
I'm looking forward to...Group class on Monday!!!! Yeah!!!!
I'm hoping...that Asher will send me the bulletin today so I can practice signing for tomorrow :P
Yesterday, I...stayed up till 11:30 talking with friends at the campout we hosted
I'm hungry for...absolutely NOTHING!!!!
The song stuck inside my head is..."I Am Not Forgotten" by Watoto (I just watched a video of our friends singing it at our church talent show and now it's stuck in my head)
I love...that God has His hand on my life - I've really been comforted by that in the past few days
I loathe...washing dishes after a camping trip :/
This week, my goal is...to finish school for the term!!!
Did I meet last week's goal?...like I said on Thursday, four down - twenty to go!!! :D
Ending time...11:50am (barely made it! :D)

Thursday, March 24, 2011

now i know...

Since I was very small, I've loved this movie and this song. But now that my music teacher has made me and a few fellow students buckle down and learn all 24 arpeggios, I appreciate this song more :D In the song, substitute "play" for "sing" and it takes on a whole new meaning :D It is sooo true that if you practice every day, those horrid things get easier and easier. :D Now I can do...about four of them at tempo (that'd be 100) in sixteenth notes. Four down, twenty to go!!! HOO-rah! Right? :P (FYI: We already learned our 24 scales - you may remember posts about that last year *wink*)

Do mi so do do so mi do

Ev'ry truly cultured music student knows
You must learn your scales
And your arpeggios
Bring the music ringing
From your chest
And not your nose
While you sing your scales
And your arpeggios

If you're faithful
To your daily practicing
You will find your progress
Is encouraging

Do mi so mi do mi so mi fa la
So it goes
While you sing your scales
And your arpeggios
Do mi so do

Do mi so do do so mi do
Do mi so do do so mi do
Though at first it seems
As though it doesn't show
Like a tree, ability will
Bloom and grow
If you're smart
You'll learn by heart
What ev'ry artist knows:
While you sing your scales
And your arpeggios

it's been a year already!?!?!

"Fellas, I feel this is my lucky day, March 23rd."
"No, your lucky day's the 24th."
"What do you mean, 'the 24th'?"
"It's 1:30 already, it's morning!"
"Yes....and what a lovely mornin'!"

♫ Go---od mornin'!"
"Good mornin'!"
"We've talked the whole night through."
"Good mornin', Good mornin' to you!"♫

please ignore the foreign subtitles - it was the only version I could find that included the lines mentioned above :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

emily's back!

I'm very pleased to say that our dear friend Emily is now back in the blog world! Unfortunately, her cancer is back too :/ Please swing over to her blog and leave her a comment letting her know that you're praying for her!

Monday, March 21, 2011

movie quotes quiz #17 answers

I just realized that I hadn't posted this up yet!!!! Yikes :D

The answers to Marie's 10th birthday Movie Quotes Quiz are now in!!! Y'all did a great job, considering that some of the movies Marie picked were rather obscure :P

#1. “I always think everything is a trap – which is why I’m still alive.”
Prince Humperdinck in The Princess Bride
People who got it right: Imogen, Maher Shalal Hashbaz*, Larkin, Vivi, Naomi*, Polly*, Nana*

#2. “Boys, I think we’ve got us a horse thief.”

Abel in Love's Abiding Joy
People who got it right: Naomi*, Abigail*, Trini, Nana

#3. “Advisors! AdvisorsGet in here!!!”

King Herod in The Beginner's Bible: The Story of the Nativity
People who got it right:

#4. “...will present a spectacle: my wife!” 

Mayor Shinn in The Music Man
People who got it right: Maher Shalal Hashbaz*, Trini, Nana*

#5. “Major Strasser's been shot.....Round up the usual suspects.”

Captain Louis Renault in Casablanca
People who got it right: Maher Shalal Hashbaz, Polly, Abigail*, Trini*, Nana*

#6. “Caaw! Caaw! RRROAR!”

Numerous characters (Russell, Carl, wilderness explorers) in Up
People who got it right: Imogen*, Maher Shalal Hashbaz*, Vivi*, Polly*,

#7. “I believe I know what key you will sing it - F major!"

John Middleton in Sense and Sensibility
People who got it right: Imogen*, Riah*, Larkin, Polly*, Abigail, Trini*, Nana*

#8. “Do y’all live around here?”
“Not ‘round - here.”

Milly and Caleb in Seven Brides for Seven Brothers
People who got it right: Riah*, Maher Shalal Hashbaz, Vivi*, Hope Marie, Polly*, Nana*

#9. “He’s about to become – “
“ – fish food.”

The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything in Jonah
People who got it right:

#10. “Slip on a banana peel, the world’s at your feet…”

Cosmo Brown in Singin' in the Rain
People who got it right: Maher Shalal Hashbaz*, Vivi*, Quinlyn*, Nana*

Hope Marie: 1
Quinlyn: 2
Larkin: 2
Riah: 4
Naomi: 4
Imogen: 5
Abigail: 5
Trini: 6
Vivi: 7
Polly: 8
Maher Shalal Hashbaz: 10
Nana: 10

So the winners are....
Nana and Maher Shalal Hashbaz!!!

(those of y'all who've read The Hiding Place, laugh with me :P M.S.H. is really Leia, under an alias :D)

Since I'm on Dad's laptop, I don't have my "award-making supplies", but I will have them up on this post tomorrow or Wednesday.