Wednesday, July 31, 2013


How are you supposed to study when Jesus is so beautiful?

I Have Found Him

This is a bit of a follow up to the post I did during Week Two titled “Cinderella Love” – I just understand that passage to a deeper, more beautiful level now at Week Seven (can you believe that, week SEVEN!?) so I wanted to bring this concept up again.

Song of Solomon – the book everyone awkwardly avoids and hopes their children don’t get a hold of during the “Read the Bible in a Year” plans.

But is it possible that in our awkwardness, we miss the whole point? For the Song of Solomon is a beautiful picture of the love Christ has for His church, and our proper response to that love.

We’ve read a whole lot of Song of Solomon here at Ellerslie, and if you asked around, you’ll find that it’s become a favorite book (or at least a very significant book) to most students and staff members.

So, previously, I just quoted the beautiful line “I have found Him and I will not let Him go.”

Solyma (unromantically translated “Shulamite”), is in her bedchamber when she hears her Beloved approaching. He knocks on the door, but she is too tired to get up and answer – and He leaves. Suddenly she is overcome with longing for Him, and jumps up to open the door, but He’s gone. So begins the search for her Beloved. It takes her all over, it exposes her to the ridicule of others – they don’t understand Who she is searching for and why He is so important to her. She is beaten and shoved around by the watchmen, mocked. Yet she continues to search, seeking single-heartedly after her Beloved. And because of this devotion, the people ask, “Goodness, who IS this Beloved anyway that you would go through all this trouble and pain for Him?” and despite what she’s been through, she bursts out with joy and delight, eager to share with others the loveliness of her Lord.

This is the Christian life. This is to be my witness in the world. To be so single-heartedly devoted to my Beloved Jesus that even those who are just observing my life, without any context, want to know what WHY I do what I do.

Here’s the Scripture, streamlined for your reading pleasure (because yes, Songs is still an awkward book at times :D)

Song of Solomon 5:2-16 (NKJV)
[Solyma] “I sleep, but my heart is awake; It is the voice of my beloved! He knocks, saying, ‘Open for me, my sister, my love, my dove, my perfect one’…I have taken off my robe, how can I put it on again? I have washed my feet; how can I defile them? My beloved put his hand by the latch of the door, and my heart yearned for him…I opened for my beloved, but my beloved had turned away and was gone. My heart leaped up for him when he spoke. I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him but he gave me no answer. The watchmen who went about the city found me. They struck me, they wounded me; the keepers of the wall took my veil away from me…
[Daughters of Jerusalem] What is your beloved more than another beloved…what is your beloved more than another beloved?
[Solyma] My beloved is white and ruddy, chief among ten thousand…Yes, he is altogether lovely. This is my beloved, and this is my friend, O daughters of Jerusalem!”
And you can tack on the end of this chapter 3:1-4, since it’s the same idea and closes the journey.
[Solyma] “By night on my bed I sought the one I love; I sought him but I did not find him. ‘I will rise now,’ I said, ‘And go about the city; In the streets and in the squares I will seek the one I love.’ I sought him, but did not find him. The watchmen who go about the city found me; I said, ‘Have you seen the one I love?’ Scarcely had I passed them, when I found the one I love. I held him and would not let him go.

Just let it sink in. I love my Jesus!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

faithful with "little."

"He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: 
and he that is unjust in the least is unjust also in much." - Luke 16:10
Oh, how often I have asked the LORD for more, begged for bigger responsibility. "I can handle it - I'm wise enough, strong enough, old enough." And yet, still nothing came. It begs the question, "Why?"

Praise the LORD that He is not only my God, but my Father. Fathers do not give their infant children more responsibility than they can handle. A four-year-old is not left to babysit the infant for evening. It would downright unwise - foolish.

Sooooo….it follows, that if a child of God was unproven in age, maturity, and responsibility, that God would withhold certain responsibilities until they prove worthy of the task…right?

This weekend, that truth was driven home. Why on earth would God give me great responsibility when I am yet still unproven in what I HAVE been given?

Because it's not that I haven't been given something. I've actually been entrusted with the knowledge of the Holy One. I have the Truth of the Gospel in my care and keeping. Why God would choose me out of all the people in the world to have this precious charge is beyond me - but it's true.

And this what the Lord revealed to me this weekend: I have a beautiful, glorious calling. And it's to fall head over heels in love with my Betrothed. To be faithful to Him, to live the life He is asking me to live so that I can be near with Him. And He isn't holding anything back. Actually, if anyone is being stingy with affection, it's ME.
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; 
and all these things shall be added unto you." - Matthew 6:33
Seek ye first. How many times do we read that verse and blow past what it means?

Yes, I have dreams for my life. But they are so secondary to the calling to follow hard after my Jesus. The more I grow like Him, the more my eyes are focused on Him, the more He will become my All in All, and my dreams will seem so gray in light of Him.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace
- Helen Lemmel
Someday, Lord willing, some of those dreams and desires of my heart (both earthly and heavenly) will be fulfilled - but until that day, I must be aware that I HAVE been given responsibility, I HAVE been given a calling, and I must be faithful. And not only faithful, but thankful and joyful.
"In every thing give thanks: 
for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." 
- 1 Thessalonians 5:18
So here I am - overwhelmed by His love in choosing me, in awe of His holiness, blessed beyond measure. I'm fixing my eyes on Jesus, reaching out for His promises, pushing "further up and further in!" (a favorite Narnian-Ellers-lian phrase) into The Endless Frontier of His goodness.

And when my eyes are focused heavenward and outward, away from myself, He will supply my needs, He will fulfill my longings.

It's a promise.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

saturday at ellerslie - horse tooth rock


with Charis

Angelica…we love you, Anne! Wish you could somehow be here too :D

April, Heather, Yours Truly, Angelica

felt like this belongs in the Princess Bride….

Carrie <3

roomates! Pamela, moi, Morgan

Alyse again - because we like taking pictures together

Ellerslie ladies…some of us, that is.

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.
He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.
Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand.
The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.
The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.
The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.
- Psalm 121